Monday, November 28, 2016

Resist temptation

Blogging issues.  And all of them are mine, not Google, not the computer.


I have no center since the election and cannot find any motivation to put up entries about cooking, gardening, household doings.  Holidays, health issues, none of it seem to matter anymore.  Without a future to look forward to, all my todays are in limbo.

I don't make plans.  I go through the motions of everyday life, but inside I'm hollow.  I've lost my country.  Millions of Americans feel the same way.  Tens of millions.  Our candidate lost.   Democracy lost.  I'm lost.

Watch Trump fill his cabinet with corruption and hatred.  Where are the checks'n'balances?  Why aren't the Justice Department and Congress countering these appointments?  

Where is the Electoral College that was created to PROTECT US FROM TYRANTS and DEMAGOGUES?   

I'm looking at the greatest Democracy on the the rearview mirror.  Is the experiment is over? Maybe.  Many people wanted democracy, but not enough people wanted to have to work at it.  If you don't keep weeding a garden, water the plants, support the vines - you get nothing.  Not only will you not get any thing for yourself, but something else will take over the neglected space.

Same with democracy.  If you're not part of it, participating in the process, supporting causes, lend a helping hand somewhere, standing up for someone OTHER THAN YOURSELF...  If you expect someone else to take care of your country, well then.... 

You get Trump.  Four years?  Someone asked me what harm can one president do to a country (let alone the planet) in four years?  

Hitler did it.

This despondancy must pass. I have to resist the temptation to give up.  Resist the urge to not take care of my health anymore.  Resist the urge to hole myself away from others.  I must resist.

We, all of us, no matter party, station, or circumstance, must RESIST. We, each of us, are now charged with holding firm to democratic principles, keep them safe.  But not by hiding them away.  Democracy is a living thing.  Tend it.  Share it.  Nurture it in spite of tyrants and corruption.  Start by getting to know your own neighbors, community.  

A helping hand is a healing hand.

Remember, it's no longer about party politics.  We're in this together. This is how we will unite.  It's vs them.  Actions are already speaking louder than their words. THEY will not make our lives better, safer, more enriched.  THEY will boost the rich, ignore the poor and burn through what's left of the middle-class. 

But, if we are strong enough, dedicated enough, even scared enough; if we've held onto the hot coals of our precious democracy over the next four years, there may be enough heat left to fire up the process and that there will be a free and open vote. 

Resist the temptation to hide. Resist the temptation to go with the flow.  Resist unfair/unjust laws. Resist.  Resist.

And remember -- 2018 is a mid-term election.  Think ahead. Keep your House and Senate representative ACCOUNTABLE to what YOUR community sent them to do. 

LEARN from this election.  It's our only hope.


Please visit this site to view progress of the petition and consider signing.  Tens of thousands are protesting in cities across the country.  Most of us don't have the opportunity to do that.  But a petition IS something we can make time for, must make time for.  Thank you.

Link to: Electoral College PETITION

PETITION to Electoral College to affirm POPULAR VOTE of 2016 election

Sunday, November 13, 2016

More loss - perhaps too much for me

The tree people that took down the front green ash trees left and never came back to finish the job.

I finally had to ask my friend to take down the dead blue ash in the backyard.

He came yesterday and began the process.

It was so painful to watch.

So much has gone wrong this past month and I am having a great deal of trouble trying to process everything.

The trees, the tradesmen, my health.  

Our presidential election (which turned out WAS rigged - in Trump's favor: Putin interference/ Wikileaks; the Electoral College) has me in a pit of despair.  Last time I felt like this was 54 years ago when I was 15 and President Kennedy was on TV telling us that we may have to have a nuclear war.

International news is equally vile - Turkey government has gone mad, rounding up Tens of Thousands of innocent citizens that he accuses of being involving a coup.  So many 'coup suspects', that he is emptying his prisons of real convicts to make room for his new prisoners.

He's also building 170 more prisons to make room for even more citizens.

The world has gone mad.

Meanwhile, tree cleanup will take several days.

Y'know, I'd rather have heard that an asteroid was coming to wipe out the earth than this planetary political gore.

At least we'd have faced THAT threat as a whole instead of the vicious division that now pits us against each other.  There is little comfort to be had amongst ourselves.

Today is my birthday.  A hollow victory to live this long.  So much loss. I am past depression and now mostly despondent.  I feel overwhelmed, vulnerable, and helpless to effect anything.  Paralized by fear, no doubt.

My doctor told me in 2013 that I should not have alcohol, it could further destroy my thyroid with the Hashimoto's Disease, so I haven't had a drop for 3 years. Last night I opened a nice Pinot Grigio that's been in the basement since then.  After a glass I was able to take a deep breath for the first time in almost a week without feeling a need to cry.

Time to bring the rest of these soldiers upstairs. I have very little hope for the future at this point.

God help us all. 

==  I've decided this is my last post at this time; I'm sure few of you care to read this downward spiral.  Don't know if I'll be back. Good luck. == 


Please visit this site to view progress of the petition and consider signing.  Tens of thousands are quietly protesting in cities across the country.  Most of us don't have the opportunity to do that.  But a petition IS something we can make time for, must make time for.  Thank you.

Link to: Electoral College PETITION

PETITION to Electoral College to affirm POPULAR VOTE of 2016 election

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Electoral College - VOTE YOUR CONSCIENCE

=== Please feel free to copy this post and repost, tweet, etc. ===
(because, honestly, I'm not 'connected' and don't know 
how to get this message out, thanks)

 An open appeal to the Electoral College who will vote for president December 19.  

(That's right, in America OUR VOTES DON'T COUNT!  The college decides.  Few of the college are elected, most are appointed.   Each state has as many electors as it has members in the U.S. Senate and House of Representatives combined. The electoral college thus includes 535 electors from the states, one for each of the 435 members of the House plus one for each of the 100 senators.)

Electors chosen on Election Day meet in their respective state capitals (or in the case of the District of Columbia, within the District) on the Monday after the second Wednesday in December, at which time they cast their electoral votes on separate ballots for President and Vice President.


Dear electors:

Our country's future is in your hands as never before.   

Some think that you are bound to vote one way or another based on your state's vote totals.

But you are NOT BOUND to do that.  You have FREE VOTE.  

You have the right to vote your CONSCIENCE.

The country sees that while WE THE PEOPLE gave more votes to the Democratic candidate, the electoral college is poised to go against the wishes of the majority of citizens.  The college is ready to affirm the election of the Republican candidate who not only got fewer votes, but has promised to do his best to dismantle all that makes America as GREAT as it already IS.

What's at stake?

Freedom of press.
Freedom of religion.
Freedom to assemble.
Rights: civil, women's, LBGT, reproductive, justice, etc.
Justice: criminal and civil.
Foreign affairs. 
International agreements and cooperation.
And much more.

Please, electors.  We beseech you as fellow Americans.  

We did our part.  We voted for our preferred candidate. The popular vote went for the Democratic candidate.

While protestors across the nation are taking to the streets to express their anger and discontent at the imminent automatic electoral college confirmation of the Republican president-elect, you each, you few (538) , you unknown to us , might be set to disregard the 10s of millions of voters that thought THEY were electing their president

But, THIS time it's different.  THIS is your time.  You can, literally, CHANGE THE WORLD with YOUR 538 votes.  You can, for once, truly represent the voice of the American people and save us from the minority candidate that we voted AGAINST.

Remember, you are your last hope.  Also remember, as the now president-elect has tweeted many times ===>

Prove him wrong, electors.  Show him that we ARE a democracy and that the majority DID NOT VOTE FOR HIM.

And then show him that you, you 538, can vote your conscience.

The country you save will be ever grateful.

Thank you.  

an American voter 


Electoral College PETITION

PETITION to Electoral College to affirm POPULAR VOTE of 2016 election

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Post-election Pre-apocalypse

Well, that went south really fast.

I went to bed in the land of inclusiveness, unity, freedom and hope.

This morning (no sleep) I found myself shaken to my core.  And terrified.

We have film and recordings of every vile threat he's made in the past 2 years. (Until he deletes it all.)

And yet, election results that show at almost half of the populace are spouting the same line.  Who knew?

It's no wonder the market futures plunged last night and that the Canadian Immigration site crashed under heavy load as the results rolled in.

I have no hope for the future of the United States of America under his administration.  

Like the Union, my beautiful 100+ yr-old ash trees fell in 1 day
eaten from the inside out by stinking parasitic beatles
The Republic lasted for 240 years and through so much.

But to be brought to down by a vile con man and his cronies?

This morning I'm without hope for my future and fear for my safety in a country marching into fascism and the 'good old days' of Jim Crow, "Whites Only", sabre-rattling isolationism.  He made it clear what kind of people were NOT in his supremist vision of America.  I'm sure an older, educated, free-thinking woman like myself didn't make the cut. 

I have an upcoming birthday.  Forget celebrating with gardening or tree planting.  Forget planning for the next decade or two.  At this time I see no future for trying to improve my lot or investing in a comfortable later years.

I need to feel protected, but assume the new government will not protect me, especially since Trump now has nuclear codes to "bomb them to hell".  

Nukes aside, this president promises to curtail the free press, right to assembly, freedom of speech, interfere with the courts and judges, disparage freedom of religion and many other democratic functions that we have taken for granted. 

We have traditionally handed over power to this president peacefully.  But he has, for the past 2 years, promised  that his use of this power will NOT be traditional, not for the benefit or our citizens, but for his own twisted vision of a dark and divisive land - a land of his own design.

I feel vulnerable and threatened, not only from the government, but his supporters that may feel that certain behaviors, exhibited by Trump, would be sanctioned, while tearing down decades of progress in Civil Right, Women's Rights, Reproductive Rights, Marriage Rights, LGBT gains, and just basic human decency between each other. 

I have only an aged mother for family.  I must protect us.  I feel abandoned - an outsider in a new, unknown country. I feel deeply for people I know of or know personally that they, too, did not make Trump's cut.

There is no one to reassure me or calm me or tell me it's going to be okay.  I cry. For the first time in my life, I fear FOR my life.  And for others.

Bottom line, I might have to buy a gun.  First guy tries to grope me, I will shoot off his f^cking nuts. 
What a difference a day makes.


How's YOUR first day in the new world? 

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

Day of Reckoning

The view from the deck across the backyard and into the golf course is quite beautiful.  The leaves are turning right fast now.  And next week I'm turning 70.  Yep, that's right fast too.  Eeek.  How did THAT sneak up on me?

Today is election day.  I urge everyone to get out and vote.  I don't think we've ever been faced with a more important decision about our country's future than this election.  


And may God bless America.

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Holes in the sky

Previously this month 2 neighbors had to have dead/dying ash trees removed.

Yesterday was my and my next door neighbor's turn.

Her green ash was monster huge, larger even than the adjoining ancient oak.  But size and spendor succumbed to the *&#$@ emerald ash borer. 

It took a many men and very large machines to bring it down.

Then it was on to my 2 front green ash trees.

All trees involved where 80' or taller and their removal will have lasting repercussion on the surrounds.

I still have another ash to be removed later on - the lovely blue ash in the back of the house.  At that time it will be another day of chainsaws, skip loaders, shredders, and an overwhelming sense of anger (at the insects) and loss.

I'll post again soon.

Friday, October 14, 2016

Mid October! Really?

Well, this month is going by as fast as September did.  Crazy.

We've had mild (coolish side) days and some brisk nights dipping into the high 30s.  Last night it dipped a little lower:

There is also a very light frost.  Will be interesting how the annuals fared later in the day.

Mild days/nights in the next 4-5 day forecast so if anything got toasted, outside chores won't be all that uncomfortable.

Speaking of comfort, so many big-ticket expenses this year forced me to cancel another big ticket item.  Namely, the sagging front bay window.  This window was sagging when I bought the house in 2002 and the darn thing has always slipped to the bottom of the expense list every since.  

This year was the year!  I had the $$.  I had the motivation!  Then one thing after another was prioritized:  Our private road needed to be regraded/repaved. $$$ The R/O water system which had never recovered from the breakdown in 2015 needed to be replaced. $$ The car took another couple checks. $$ And now the dying/dead ash trees need to come down before they fall down. $$$

So the bay window and getting the driveway sealed -- off the list this year.  

Plastic over the window was not cutting it.  The leakage at the window is so much so that strong winds actually pop the plastic right off the tape.  This year - I went radical and totally foamed up the sashed into place.

I will still have to put plastic over the windows to prevent condensation since the glass itself is no longer insulated between.

One thing I noticed right off the bat yesterday - I'm getting a lot less outside noise.

Supposed to be a harsh winter this year.  Last nights earlier-than-traditional date freeze seems to indicate such.  Hope the foam helps.

Meanwhile, after over 3 weeks, I'm still recovering from the biop.  When I went back Monday, the surgeon said he's not seen these kind of problems that I'm having before.  What's he doing?  "We'll look at you again in 2 weeks."